What am I really?

"You know, you're kind of a bad ass."

These are the words that a friend said to me when I met her for an Orange Theory Fitness class a few weeks ago. And it really got me thinking, am I a bad ass?

I am certainly intense. And as I have discussed in prior posts, I don't do anything half-way. Especially not things that concern my health and fitness. I don't do this often, but recently I took a step back and recognized how far I have come to get to where I am. I think evaluating the measures you have taken to reach this point becomes highly underrated. We forget the struggles and challenges we forged through. Whether they be relationship problems, addictions, medical conditions, financial problems, etc. Whatever challenges we have had, brought us to today.

Some of my challenges have been extremely unpleasant for me. And yet, at the same time, I know most people couldn't have gotten through many of the things I have. So here's where I give myself a pat on the back and say, damn good job me! (It's okay for you to do this too!)

Since I decided to make some changes about 2 1/2 years ago, the progression has been rough. Initial changes were the hardest, and when I finally got through a year, I rewarded myself with CrossFit. That was fall of 2014. I feel like that was a lifetime ago. Because for me, it was. I was living a very different life. And I continued to take steps to improve my life and get to the place I wanted to be.

After one year of CrossFit, I started branching out to other things as well, doubling up my workout days, focusing on my nutrition, incorporating Isagenix into my plan, etc. When I look around me, I see the majority of the country struggling to get in 30 minutes of activity a day. And here I am, counting my steps (I always get 10,000 if not more), planning my meals, focusing on the things that are important to me. Most people don't do double days. Especially not double days of CrossFit followed by an intense cardio class like Orange Theory Fitness or Cycle Scape. But I do.

I pride myself on working harder than a lot of people. Because for me, without that drive, determination and motivation to stay in the positive mindset I am in, I will simply end up back where I once was. And trust me, no one wants to know that girl.

So am I a bad ass? Well, if a bad ass takes control of their life, prides themselves in how far they have come and in how hard they have worked, then yea sure, I am a bad ass. But I am not trying to be a bad ass.

I am only trying to be the absolute best me I can be. In that journey, I also hope to motivate and encourage people along the way and show that this trip is 100% worth it.

I am not perfect (there I said it), but I am working on myself every day to help motivate those around me and remain as positive as I can be despite life pushing back. I am not where I want to be yet, but I am close. Closer than I have ever been, and that's something I can be proud of. 



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