New Year, New Plan

We're one month into the new year, and I have not written a single blog about how things are going. At the end of last year, I was ready for something new, exciting and challenging. I had all the steps in place for this to be great. And yet somehow I feel like I have fallen further behind.

Towards the end of 2015, my lifting partner approached me with the proposition training as a team. I was thrilled with the idea. More training, harder workouts, really bonding with some people I like hanging out with (I like hanging out with a lot of people, but this would be different), accountability, etc. We met several times and planned out a schedule, eating style, training program, etc. We all talked a lot about what we wanted this to be, and I was confident it fit exactly in the plan I had for myself. And then somehow, it didn't.

The schedule is tough, I have to say. I am the only married one on the team; the rest are single. Which is not a huge deal (unless you count my husband asking when he's going to see me). But the timing is late. Later than I am used to. Sometimes it's okay depending on what I have going on for the day but 7:30 pm gets old quick. Then I'm cooking dinner at 9:00 p.m., and this is what I wanted. It's what I signed up for.

The schedule works a few days a week when I work in the office of the CrossFit gym from 3:30 pm - 7 pm. I get a lot accomplished plus I am delegating and getting things handled, so that feels good. It's only two days a week, though, Monday and Wednesday. Tuesday doesn't start till 6:30 pm, so I go home and work around the house. I hate this day because I hate the breakup. I prefer to keep going, when I stop, I lose it. Thursday is out scheduled rest day/active recovery day. I normally don't do anything this day because when it comes around, my husband hasn't seen me all week and needed time. Friday is another 6:30 pm day. REALLY...6:30 pm on a Friday! Can you imagine what that's going to do to me during the summer time (if I make it that far?!)? Saturday is another day off, gearing up for a longer workout on Sundays. I coach on Saturday morning, so I am already there. Except that, I don't workout. It's strange. Sunday is a long day that starts at 11 am. I like this day because we have the whole gym to ourselves, and we get time to talk, bond, etc. It's a fun day.

All seems grand right? But it's tougher than I thought. Waiting to workout in the evening instead of on my way home kind of sucks when I am off work at 3:00 pm. But I stick to the schedule. Then there's the whole problem with social events. Friday night social events are hard and sometimes I have to bail on workouts. I hate bailing on workouts; I feel sad and guilty. But life gets in the way.

Now there are the workouts. They focus a lot on specific movements or things each week. Sometimes I feel like I am getting a great workout, last night was one: 20 burpee pull-ups (whoever invented these should die), 20 front squats and 20 box jumps. 3 Rounds for Time (RFT). I haven't sweated that much in a long time. And I finished in 21:50. Not too shabby if you ask me. Other days, I feel like I didn't do enough. I use to do second workouts 1-2 days a week before this program began, so I am feeling like it's less than I was doing.

The eating is the final component. 5 months ago I was STRICT paleo. I mean strict. And I was 10lbs lighter and felt better. Now, things are so busy; I am meal prepping but only when I have time (although I strongly recommend checking out www.paleonick.com, signed up for his meal plan and I love it). I am not getting my shakes in as well as I was. I am flabby compared to 5 months ago. I have got to get myself on track! I have to get back to strict Paleo. It's the only way, and the ONE thing that I know works for me.    

The Open is coming up, and I want to do well considering last year I couldn't do wall balls or pull-ups. I just don't feel like I am getting there. I feel like I need to be working harder and planning better. Even though I was sure, this was all planned out SO well!

It has only been one month. 27 days in fact. And yet somehow I feel like I am losing my mind! I know I need to give it more time. Honestly, I miss my husband sometimes and strangely enough....I miss classes! There is something special and unique about CrossFit classes that are not like any other environment. I promise you this, I had tried nearly every workout on the planet before finally finding something I loved. The people push you;  the coaches push you, and so when there are 4 of us doing the workout...no one is pushing us but us. I struggle with that, and I think it shows.

How much of this is needing more adjustment time? Probably some. How much of it won't change? A fair amount, like missing the classes and the time with my husband. I don't know what the right things is or if the program I am on now is the right one. Next week I am going to try to add in some additional workouts and try to get real about my paleo eating. It's not that I don't feel like I am doing it, just feel like I could be doing more.